I LOVE YOU....You amaze me...
December 21, 2003 at 10:09 PM

I love you I love you I love you!!!!!!!!!

I love you Eric. For all that you are and have become and will come to be.

I love you I love you I love you!!

You amaze me, and inspire me and make me so smiley happy that my face hurts. I love what you do to me. I love how you hug me...

The way you looked at me like, "WOW..." when you read the card I gave you, (finally, finally I was able to express to you, a small part of what I feel for you. And what an amazing person you are. I was too scared before...) and then you HUGGED me..... What a beautiful moment. Know that I love you...My precious light from heaven. You are wonderful and perfect, and I love you...

EVEN when you pick your nose and I catch you doing it, even when you fart. Even though you're such a boy and have to destroy things like boys do. I love you through it all.

I love your hair. It's so amazingly soft...WOW...thank you for letting me touch it. And when I put your hair into little clips and you had little sticking up pony tails on your head.

And when you took off your sweatshirt...WOW...guess who was looking at your hot stomach and belly button...

Yeah, it was me. :)

And I loved when you ran away from me when I tried to give you an I'm sorry hug for teasing you. And you tripped over your feet and fell down, and then stood back up, and said "Yeah!! That's AWESOME!!!!" And then you grabbed me and hugged me. And several other times in the night, we hugged and rocked back and forth. And I could see HER looking at us. Watching me. Maybe jealous...Maybe not. And that's so hard...cuz she's wonderful too. I gave her my power ranger action figure to show I do still love her cuz she's awesome...but she's still HER. And you still like HER...and here I am...wanting YOU. And I love her, that little cutie...and I can't really do a damn thing about it.

When are we just gonna be together? When do I get to have you? I get to be with you...but I don't get to be with you, you know? I'm always there...but so is SHE. When are you finally gonna just fall in love with me? What can I do? What do I say? You have seen me. You know me. You've seen me happy and shy and scared and sad and goofy and ugly and pretty. In the morning when I've just woken up. And when I am all dressed up and wearing panty hose...

I've seen you all dressed up in your hot black shirt and cute dress pants. And your sexy plain white t-shirt and khackis (my favorite). When your hair is all screwed up, and when you make it all sexy and spikey. When you've put on your ball cap because you're hair looks weird....When it was long and shaggy...and now short...I've seen you when you're really sleepy...AND when you're way hyper and happy...

You KNOW me...I KNOW YOU...And I wanna fall in love with your precious little heart. I already love you...but can we just FALL in love already...It's time. I want you. I want you to have my heart. It's here...will you please come take it my love?

Don't ever stop hugging me. I live for that. You keep me alive.....