What a week...
November 20, 2003 at 2:55 PM

What an odd week...

Starting out AMAZING and WONDERFUL, then turning into really awful, and now...OKAY.

I'll start off with the amazing and the wonderful...

Sunday:

Church, which was awesome as usual!

And YOU, my love giving me a hug with no prompting at all. I didn't even grab YOU this time. You teased me, and I (faking like I was sad) started to walk away from you, but you jumped down from the stage and pulled me in for a hug. God I love you....

Then the Mikulas's house on Sunday night was so fun...I LOVED seeing everyone and it just reconfirmed that this is where my heart is. I love love LOVE all of the people at MY CHURCH, and I loved being around them and getting to talk to them and spend time with them, and hear their amazing stories. Tom came up to me and asked if I was still going to another church also, and when I told him I wasn't, he said "Welcome home" and gave me a big hug...That really meant a lot to me because I realized once again...I AM HOME. This is my home...I love it. And then when I left, Bobby walked me out to my car. We walked through the cold arm in arm, and I told him I had never had a date to my car before...He said he hadn't either, and then after burping LOUDLY, he said "Oh no! I'm ruining our date!" But I didn't mind...he's a cool kid...

Monday, I saw an AWESOME AMAZING concert with MY GIRLIES. It was so much fun! We saw Maroon Five who absolutely rocked!!!! I love those guys! They put on one hell of a show and I loved every second...And of course, as Annie already knows, I can't go without mentioning my FAVORITE part of the evening which was the second opening act. His name is Gavin DeGraw, and he was absolutely amazing...His voice was wonderful...a lot like Stevie Wonder, who I LOVE, and his stage presence was all I could have hoped for. Besides the fact that he was definitley one of the sexiest guys i have ever seen, he really just owned the stage. If the show had ended there, I don't think I would have been disappointed not to see Maroon Five...he was that GOOD. He was one of those types of people you could tell really loved what he was doing. He made you love it, and made you want it...He was full of sexuality from his amazing flirty smile to his sexy voice...He was wonderful. We went to meet him after the show, and got his CD and autograph and everything, and I was just so nervous...But I managed to say a few words to him, and of course the highlight of that evening............. He called me "baby." I congratulated him for spelling my name right, and he said "Thank you, baby." That was definitely the highlight of the night. I LOVE it when a guy calls me "baby." He seemed like the kind of guy that really knows what women want, and need to hear. He made you feel special, and beautiful...What an amazing person...i hope he comes back soon...

Tuesday, not such a good day...Well, it started out good. Abbey stayed with me at Rob's and we basically did nothing for the whole day...Nothing productive anyway...We got up, stayed in our pajamas, ate a granola bar and some "Bags of Gold" (Little spinach and cheese pastry thingies), practiced armpit noises, talked about everything from boogers to farts to penises to pubic hair, and practiced "sexy" poses in front of the mirror (In case guys ever wanted to know what women talk about and do together...THERE YOU HAVE IT.) We had an absolutely DUMB fun stupid weird unproductive day..

Then, my Mom called and said that my brother and sister-in-law were going to see our friend Gary who hasn't been doing very good at all in the hospital. So I ran home and waited to go with them. I almost didn't go because of band practice, and then I realized how stupid that was, because Gary, my friend, was in the hospital, and maybe wouldn't make it through the night. So we went to go see him, and it was a really great thing that we did, because while we were there, he stopped breathing. As soon as we knew, we ran back into the room, and I said my goodbye by giving him kisses on his head. I knew I would regret it if I didn't say goodbye somehow. I won't get into the details about HOW he died, but all I have to say is, alcohol is a terrible horrible thing...We love and miss you Gary...

I was late, but I went to practice anyway, mostly not wanting to miss anything, and hoping it would take my mind off of things. I was okay until everyone asked me what was wrong, and where I had been, and then I started crying again. I hate that because I don't like people to see me cry, but I couldn't help it. But at the same time it was a good thing because they were all so loving. It was like I walked inside and into all of their arms...They just took me in and then we prayed for Gary and his family, and then after that...I was okay. Mic, my new really great buddy, stopped playing and came over and gave me a great big hug which I needed, and his bright smile made things so much better.

And YOU...Eric, you, made my night all over again when you smiled at me, and danced your goofy butt over to me, hopping around trying to make me laugh and then giving me a big hug and telling me you were sorry about what had happened. You gotta know I love hugs from you the MOST-EST...Thank You.

Since then, my week's been pretty good. I am pretty at peace with everything, and I feel good. God makes it better every time...