so confusing,....
October 15, 2003 at 5:50 PM

Been Listening to:

Vertical Horizon: "Send it Up",

Jason Mraz: "Sleeping to Dream"

Eating: Cherry Twizzler Bites

Thinking about: How cool Eric still is...

Dammit. Why does he have to be so great...

I wonder if it bothers people when I sing the Duck Tales Theme Song at the top of my lungs...

It was nice to find those pieces of my childhood the other night...thanks girls..

I just wanna get out of here. This hole. This little stupid hole. I just wanna get out, and I keep digging and digging, and I'm not going anywhere...

I just wanna move forward. My soul moves forward and my mind moves forward, but my body stands still. I wanna make something happen, but instead I wait. For something right. For something good. For something that makes sense. And there's only one thing that actually makes sense, and it's not happening. And I can't move.

I know what I want, and I don't know. I know what I need, and I don't know how to touch it. To just get a piece of it. Enough to grab onto. To hold onto. To lay into. To live for.

Where do I start...what comes next...why is life so confusing...

i wanna be five again.

PS...I love you Eric...