Finally
March 24, 2003 at 10:28 PM

This entry isn't exactly "timely" anymore. I wrote it over a week ago, but diaryland decided to try this new thing where if you're not GOLD, you don't get to write entries...Today it finally worked, so here ya go.

Isn't music great???? I mean really just amazing. I can't even begin to describe...One of my dreams came true today...One I was never sure would.

I got to sing "Respect" by Aretha Franklin in church today. CHURCH. I know...isn't that fun? It's one of my all time favorite songs and I've always wanted to sing it. It's got so much room for attitude and it's so empowering. I feel so damn powerful when I sing it. Like I just have the world right in my hand. Like I pull them more into my grasp, for every word I sing. It was so much fun! And I also did something I was never sure that I would. I actually allowed myself to have a little attitude, and actually perform. I danced around and really interacted with the crowd. I guess it just felt right today. I feel so comfortable up there, and I trust and love those people so much, I know that I can be free to be myself, and they'll accept me and love me just the same. I love that about this church.

So it was a wonderful day. I got so many compliments and I felt so loved, and I had so much fun. OH! And I had backup singers and dancers!! Deb, Abbey, Diana, and Noelle all had backup vocals and choreography to the song. It was so cute and fun, and I felt even more like a real star. I wished I could dance and sing at the same time, but that may never happen...I'll have to get some coordination first...

Oh!! And my brother and sister-in-law and baby nephew all came! I can't believe it but they came to church. My brother who hasn't been to church since he was a little boy, and my sister-in-law who maybe hasn't ever been. It was very cool. Of course they were just there to hear my song, but hey, it's a start. They even got to talk to a couple people from church, so...again, it's a start. I'll keep letting them know about "special" things, and you never know...I might just get them to stay...

Ahhhh....What a great great day. Lots of hugs and lots of love and approval. I love life...

And I LOVE YOU...Muah!