WOW
February 26, 2003 at 11:49 PM

I am filled with so much love lately that I wonder if I might burst.

I can't stop smiling, and hugging, and touching, and laughing. And for no reason at all. Just because life is so beautiful...

Something pretty cool did happen that has never happened to me before...

When Liz and I were at Hard Rock for lunch, we had this waiter that was so sweet. He was cute, and just a lot of fun. With a lot of coaxing from Liz, I left my name and number on a napkin on the table for him when we left. I have never done that before, and felt kinda silly about it, but hey, it was fun. And I never expected him to call...but he DID...

I got a message from him tuesday while at rehearsal, and I had to listen to it about 10 times before I was sure that I wasn't dreaming...but yeah, he called.

I am trying not to get too excited because, well, what if he thinks that I am actually Liz. He doesn't necessarily remember which name went with who. In that case it would be pretty embarassing to meet back up with him. Liz and I look MUCH different. Actually just about opposite...

But I did call him back surprisingly enough, because it's just not in my nature. Somewhere I got guts to do it. However, I got his machine too, so now we are playing phone tag. I guess I'll just have to wait and see if he calls back again, and take it from there. I would be satsified enough to just have a guy friend to hang out with once in awhile, but we'll see. I have no expectations...

There are so many beautiful guys in my life right now. Most of them are married, but just to be in their company is a huge part of my happiness lately. I love to be around guys. We just click. I get along with them so well. I have spent a lot of my life being "one of the guys" and although I pride myself in the fact that I can make great friends with guys, I hate it that I am one of the guys. I think it's kept me from love a lot of times. I am hoping that I have reached the point in my life where I can be one of the guys, and girlie and the same time...

On an even better note...I get to see my MOTET this saturday...I can't wait. I need a night of endless dancing and feeling rhythms pound in my chest. You can really feel the music, it's beats pulse through your entire body, and you're truely a part of the music. I love it. I can guarantee I'll come back even more inspired, just like everytime, and I'll get my dose of much needed music, dance, and hopefully a few hugs from the guys. 'Cuz I just love hugs...

Oh yeah, and I love you. I send you all my hugs, and hope you have wonderful days ahead of you. I'll write again soon.